Thursday, September 29, 2005

everybody knows it hurts to grow up

this post might be abit contradictory and err. off..
my goodness. i can't believe i started mugging again. as in the pre-prelim pace like. really no life man. before i this, i was busy training everyday - no life. and now, studying everyday - equally no life. on top of that, i'm studying and eating and not training. best. ahaha. anyway, if i had a chance, maybe i'll choose not to be in the national team. training has taken up so much of my time this year and i've no time to spent time with my family. and friends. quite saddening. cos it turns out i fail at both. strained relationship with my parents and sister. drifted friendships. judo? ha. ha. being a national player, lost in school level. cool. and now the time i've left with, i've to study for Os. cynical eh. gosh. xuanyi you're such a loser. haha. blah blah blah. good thing God is still around whenever i'm feeling melancholic. and if God is for us, who can be against us (:

i want to be a sec.1 again. i want to be a white belt again.