Sunday, March 27, 2005

(i really dont wanna update)

it's 3:54a.m and i can't get to bed(!)

nothing much happen this week
but i manage to
catch up with alot of people,
made new friends,
talk to my sister,
laugh.

i had a really nice talk with
my sister just now
though it's..less than 30minutes?
it's sufficient.really.
especially when things are not going right
i couldn't exactly remember the
last time we actually talk?
(i doubt she reads my blog so..)
i love huiying.
my only sister.
though i know she is holding back alot of stuff
but i won't demand her to open up
i won't repeat that mistake again
time will do.

`Good Friday.
Jesus died on that very day.
"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
Jesus cried out to God.
and that's also my prayer.
God didn't answer any of the above two.
but..God have His reason.
Jesus have to go through
pain, humiliation, suffering -Crucifixion
He chose the nails-He obeyed
"It is finished."
and He Resurrected on Easter Day.
Heaven, a wonderful place.
no pain,humiliation,suffering,no TEARS.
and the devil can't be there.
i admired at God's wonderful plan and creation.

"Is what Jesus have gone through nothing compared to what i'm going through?"
that's not the way, xuanyi

i wanna stand firm, strong
bcos' of what my Father have done for me
and i wanna see him tremble
GO AWAY, you loser.

shaun told me to rebuke those kinda thoughts
what he said about the devil is true.
that's what that devil have been telling me.
i'm scared, i stumbled.
i begin to hallucinate..
not good.

i'm sorry to doubt about You,Your promises, Lord.
i repent and rebuke those thoughts in Your name,
please forgive me.
replace those anger/disappointment/emptyness
with Your grace/peace/love/YOU
thank you, i love you, Lord.
amen.

i realise that i'm beginning to
keep more things to myself..
not that i'll reveal much in my blog
to my friends..i'm tired.
(i don't wanna get started on this again..)
ohwells.

i really had fun on friday.
didn't recall having so much
fun ever since the st nicks girls
did the funny dance?
-stare at nat\abby\joy\nicol
and abby's singing.
meomories.
area gathering.
it's pretty much enjoyable.
i was in the committee.
the committee is cool i tell you
alexi,he did most of the stuff !-guilty
josh,stupid metrosexual,made me walk and run so much with him
geraldine,-ahem- GS!
sam,AOB-any other business, GS
-get it?
nehmind.
i can't believe i went to play soccer
after walking the whole day!
thanks to Joeyee, i've lotsa fun
i'm good?
-refer to syen's blog
nah..just that i'm a girl and all the guys
don't dare to come near me
i'm not fierce nor hiong like what he said
i'm not okay.
i'm gentle, i'm in judo.lol.
thankyou, Joeyee!
i really enjoyed myself

plus today,
i've a good time talking to shawn,aaron,ray
"my straw is BLACK!"
-ray
hoho.
stupid jan
i really wonder how she gets into rgs
and if you're reading this..
please please, act your age
stop acting stupid..
totally defeats the purpose that God gave you brain
i pity the cgl+cg members
okayokay.i'm just kidding.haha
thanks for making me laugh

i won't be able to blog for some time now
bye people.
Believe in Jesus today.

oh yar, MRS CHER(!!)\trili
please be back soon kay?
stayovers!late night supper!
but not oyster omelette please-puke
-i'll tell you about more cute guys i've met.haha!
but i dont like him anymore la.
bye bye.